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I`m NOT gonna be fine, I`m not gonna be OK. This time I am gonna break down.. .
It`s gotten to the point where I just can`t do it anymore... I can`t pretend to be happy&smile
when i know all i wanna do is cry..
I`m sick of being the strong one, the one who holds it all together
'cause thats what everyone expects me to do,
well not this time.. this time I am crying..

EVERY 18 MiNUTES ..
someone dies from a suicide.
EVERY 43 SECONDS ..
someone attempts one

Have yOu ever realized that when
peOple say yOu've chang3d; it's
juSt because yOu've stOpped livin
..yOur life __ theiR way..

There’s a point in life
when you get tired of chasing everyone
& trying to fix everything...
it's called realizing that you don’t need
certain people in your life

* when im gone, dont come after me.
give it some time, you'll get over me
just like everybody else
ill be waiting but i cant wait forever<3
i love you and dont you forget that

   
my past is real
but thats not even half of it
the other half is hidden inside
never to be revealed
i refused to be reminded
the trust i used to have
is now gone...
i'm forever a mystery

im tugging at my hair
im pulling at my clothes
im trying to keep my cool
i know it shows
im staring at my feet
my cheeks are turning red
im searching for the
words inside my head
im feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
cause i know youre worth it
your worth it <3

we were both standing out in the [rain], i told you to look at all the [rain drops], you did and i told you "those are all the tears i cried for you" x3

 
the girl who seemed unbreakable...broke
the girl who seemed so strong...crumbled
the girl who always laughed it ...cried
the girl who would never stop trying... finally quit...

im so tired of pReTeNdInG everything is okay
         my tears are starting to show and my smile'
               is slowly  ->   [( f  a  d  i  n  g    a  w  a  y  )]

[bEaUtIfuL] girl w/ pretty eyes.
a hidden world of hurt andlies.
she `sits up in her  bed and cries.
it`s hard  for her
to realize she has become so weak,
slowly....she says goodbye.

   
          later when they ask her what happened
            she'll lie. she'll say she never loved him,
            that it was all a lie .. a 2 week crush that
            never got past scribbling his name on the
            back of her math book. but she always
           mixes a little bit of truth into it. she
           exists outside of love in all of the space
           that those 4 tiny letters can't fill ..where
           the people you can't live without are the
          ones who will save you, or kill you, or both.

 you can be told your
[B e a U T i F u L]
every day .. &
people can say your
[P e R f e C t]
in every way .. but
when you don`t
[B e L i e V e] iT ..
not for
[o N e . M i N u T e]
cUz yOu YoUrSeF
[w O n T . a D m i T . i T]

It's hard to look in
the mirror these
days; when everyone else
is everything you'd
            [ rather be ]

   
People say i have a perfect life...
           ...I say they have a great imagination </3

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 Depression with a fucking capital D pplz
 

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I Hate It When People Ask Me If i'm okay
It's Just Another Reminder That I'm Not.

Sometimes You Gotta Smile && Walk Away
Hold Your Tears In And Pretend Your Okay.

She Strikes A Pose But She Dies Inside
Nobody Knows She'sABeautifulSuicide.

&& there's this emptiness inside
her she`d do anything to » f i l l . .

there is more to

living than only

 s u r v i v i n g . .

   she was beautiful . .

she had everything & more *

   
iT'S LiKE TAKiNG ME T0 THE T0P 0F THE HiGHEST
MOUNTAiN.. SH0WiNG ME THE W0RLD & SAYiNG
THiS iS WHAT Y0U CAN'T HAVE.

I've come to the point in my life where nothing matters anymore and the things I used to care for aren't worth fighting for.

 i was stupid to think for just one second that u cared

when i have a smile on my face and ia twinkle in my eye
only my real friedns know
i'm about to cry

everything happens for a reason
but the hardesr part is,
finding out waht that reason is

   
do you ever just sit down and start writing?
and everything that is going through your head just
pours onto the paper?
and when you reread it, it doesnt make sence
but you it's meaning?
because your mind jumps around so much
and when you let go,
you lose control.
all of your heart, your soul, is on that paper
and you become so vulnerable to the world...

whoever said the sun brings you happiness, never danced in the rain

   
if you want it bad...you'll never let it slip away

life is nothing but a play and we are the actors,
when u get up in the morning and open your front door
scene one begins...

   
stand up for what you believe in, even if you're standing alone.

you say the sky is the limit… but there are footprints on the moon…

I do not forgive because I am weak…
I forgive because I am strong enough…
to know that people make mistakes…

   
So thin she could dance between

the raindrops in a downpour. <3

   
 
i walk in the rain cuz no one knows i'm crying

   
See the picture? Wipe off the dust..
look at the frame it is starting to rust '
remember the times we had toqether
i just want u to know, you're in my heart forever...

   
,- - - - - - - - - - -»«- - - - - - - - -»--»,
: isn`t it funny --> how when u want :
: it the most u can`t have it? & when :
:u have it u don`t care, & once u lose :
: it You'd do anything to get it back... :
`- - - - - - - - - - -»«- - - - - - - - - --»`

It crazy how one day you are right next to me and we laugh
& the next day I am holding flowers in my hands crying over your [[Grave]]

   
(-_-*The Best Things in Life*-_-)~
* Smiling
* Laughing so hard ur face hurts
* A hot shower
* A bubble bath
* The beach
* Midnight phone calls that last for hours
* Laughing at an inside joke
* Best friends
* Overhearing some1 say something nice bout u
* Waking up and realizing u still a few hours 2 sleep
* Watching the sunset
* Road trips w/ friends
* Holding hands wit someone u care about
* Love

    
one SONG can spark a moment
one FLOWER can wake a dream
one TREE can start a forest
one BIRD can herald spring
one SMILE brings a friendship
one HANDCLASP lifts a soul
one STAR can guide a ship at sea
one WORD can frame a goal
one VOTE can change a nation
one SUNBEAM lights a room
one CANDLE wipes out darkness
one LAUGH can conquer gloom
one STEP must start each journey
one WORD must start each prayer
one HOPE will rise our spirits
one TOUCH can show you care
one VOICE can speak with wisdom
one HEART can know what`s true
one LIFE can make a difference
YOU SEE, IT`S UP TO » Y0U*

all she wants is to be thin
and the guys to think she`s beautiful
but all her friends won`t stop saying,
"Ohmygod you`re gorgeous and sooo skinny !!! "
but that doesn`t matter to her
she won`t eat and she won`t cry
she promised herself to do this before she would die
but she can`t help but cry
and always blames herself
"It`s not your fault!"
but truely deep inside each little cut on her wrist
she knows her friends are lying </3

Shes fed up with the way
people treat her she looks up
to the sky and screams
[( enough is enough )]
she falls to her knees and says
goodbye to her life, to everything
she once loved. pull the trigger
and her mask falls to the floor. x3

   
I am raggedy anne, in a Barbie world </3

   
1,377 teenagers become mothers.
1,106 teenage girls get an abortion.
500 adolescents begin using drugs
4,219 teenagers get a sexually transmitted disease.
1,000 adolescents begin drinking alcohol.
3,610 teens are assulted.. 80 are raped.
2,861 teens drop out of school.
420 children are arrested for drug abuse.
5,388 youths are arrested.
6 teens commit suicide.
» .. EVERYDAY

 i keep
SiLENT
even when i`m
SCREAMiNG
inside .. cause the things that
DRiVE ME CRAZY ..
i have
NO CHOiCE
but to
HiDE
x/3

Before you let go, remember why you
held on for so long in the first place --

i guess me getting upset over stupid things is my way of showing how much i actually  care

Love is like   writing  your
name on a foggy window
& watching it   s l o w l y
fade         <//3        away

   
     i feel sometimes that nobody has held me down
     & forced me to cry or made me hug them .. orr
     got to the inside of me .. it`s like i say " ooh. i`m
     fine " and walk away. nobody has ever said, " -
     no.. youu`re not " <||3  

the girl who smiles at you walking down the hall.
the girl who tells you everything is alright and then cries at night.
the girl who follows everyone and tries to fit in.
the girl who smiles when she's falling apart.
the girl who needs the attention but doesn't ask for it.
the girl who has secret messages behind everything.
the girl who cries for help but doesn't expect any to come.
the girl who has a problem but doesn't know how to deal with it.

they told me i was crazy
they said i didn’t deserve the space i occupied
they taught me that being me wasnt enough
i wasnt perfect i deserved the the pain they inflicted
they were wrong i was only seven
i know that now
but it doenst matter
i still cut
and they still won.

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